(Editor’s Note: After Anthony DiDomenico wrote his post on comparing himself to movie characters, actor/comedian/friend Bryan McKenna wanted to write a post on why not to compare yourself to movie characters. Instead, we got a post comparing himself to a movie character. So, here is our fourth guest writer thus far. Of course my usual shenanigans will be in the italics and picture captions.)
My friend and fellow comedian, Anthony DiDomenico wrote a guest blog for Hugh’s blog Operation: Love. It was an interesting read (check it out here) Anthony compared himself to classic romantic-comedy characters and while reading his post, some interesting questions kept popping up in my mind:
- When we are influenced by films, is it us consciously resonating with the characters or our subconscious mind?
- Are we simply reacting to what were watching?
- Films are meant for entertainment, but all films invoke emotion within us. Are my emotions just entertainment for film makers?
- If not, then for whom?
- …Who the hell watching me?
I remember a time when I first saw the film Rounders. I was a young 19 year-old boy floundering around in college and the only repeating thought I had was “What do I want to do with my life?” Note: There is no correlation with this post and Hugh looking like a gay Matt Damon. (Editor’s Note: Hey…)
Watching the film, I was intrigued with the character that Matt Damon plays, “Mike McDermott”. Mike McDermott is considered one of the best card players in NYC. (SPOILER ALERT) He loses his life savings in one game he decides to quit poker forever to focus on law school, a decision that he is never really comfortable with. Then an old friend (Edward Norton) gets out of jail and he leads Mike back into the life he once tried to forget. The harder life that always called to him.
Once I saw this film I really understood “Mike’s” character. He was living a double life. By day he led the life of a soon-to-be-lawyer who was miserable not his inside. Then at night, he would follow his heart. The life he really wanted, a hustling card player. I was living the same type of life. I was a college student but the life I really wanted, the life I really craved was that of a comedian. (Editor’s Note: Definitely the “harder” life…but the stage is like a siren beckoning from the sea.)
I had never tried stand up comedy but I had been dreaming about it since I was about 16 or 17 years-old. People would tell me I needed to try getting on stage but I never listened to them. Why? Because of fear. Fear stopped me from being the person that I wanted to be.
If I can give any advice, it is to never let fear infiltrate your brain and dictate your life. Now, I look at fear as more of a reason to do something than a reason to not do something. If I have a new joke and I am afraid it might bomb, and I hear that voice in my head saying “The audience will hate it.” or “Don’t do it.” my new theory it to IGNORE that voice and DO IT. I’m always surprised with the results.
After seeing the movie I felt mixed emotions:
- Was it the film’s message that intrigued me, or does destiny choose us?
- Are these emotions something bigger?
- Maybe it’s some sort of higher power?
I’m not overly religious but I believe in God and that God will send me messages from time to time by pushing me in the right direction. This was one of those times. As the film proceeds, Mike McDermott realizes that the life he chose can’t stop the life he was destined for.
It took me 7 years to finally listen to the voice in my head and try comedy. (I never said I listened right away.) (Editor’s Note: The only thing crazier than hearing voices is arguing with those voices..)
Emotion is defined in the dictionary as an effective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
I believe that God is involved in the consciousness and sub-consciousness of our minds. When I’m feeling a different emotion I always ask if God is showing me something that I haven’t yet seen myself. Maybe he is and maybe he isn’t; but that is up to you to decide. Maybe he just likes to see us filled with emotion for his own entertainment.
(Editor’s Note: At first, I was like what the hell is Bryan doing? This is a blog about relationships. Then I realized that the whole post relates to our theme here at O:L. The theme is and always has been, following your heart. Don’t ignore signs from the universe [higher power, God, Buddha, Allah…whatever] and eventually you will find the correct path you are supposed to be on. Thanks to Bryan McKenna for the contribution. If you would like to contribute to the blog please email Logic1147@gmail.com and we can work something out. Thanks for reading, see you next time.)